Posted by: Kiana Bullard | June 24, 2009


Total complete surrender.  What does this look like?  What is this?  How does one completely rid their life of one thing and completely, wholly, totally surrender to something else?  This has been on my heart and mind a lot since hearing Francis Chan speak.  He challenged us with knowing fully the will of God.  Do I want to know the will of God for my life?  It would be easier to get to heaven and then realize “Oh, God, that is what you wanted me to do.  I had no idea!”  Chan was very convicting with this.  It would be much easier to not know what God wants me to do right now because that means that I have the decision to make.  God’s will or my own.  Not knowing is easier, not right, but it is easier. 

Think about this for a minute.  What if God had it to where we went through certain things simply so we could encourage other people or help them deal with difficult situations?  What if the only reason I am a Spanish major is so I can meet people and befriend those I would not normaly come in contact with?  What if the only reason I deal with divorce is so I can have a common hurt with others and be able to support others and encourage them?  What if the only reason that we go through difficult times is so God can teach us a lesson, make us stronger and then be able to use that circumstance to later help out someone else?  What if…?  I could go on, but I will spare you.  I got the opportunity to share my story of God’s work in my life today with someone.  At the time I didn’t think anything of it.  I felt led to share this with someone.  As I shared, this person also shared with me that they dealt with some of the same things and that they had never been able to share that with anyone else.  They expressed the freedom they felt and the burden that was lifted because I shared with them.  They thanked me for sharing because it made it easier for them to share.  I had never thought about it until that time, but maybe the reason I went through hard and difficult times in my life was so that I could, years later, share them with someone and give them some freedom.  God is so crazy.  He works in ways that we don’t always understand and He will use us as we are, when we pretend to be someone else we can hinder what God has purposed for us.  God made us each unique because He has a very unique plan for us!  Don’t hinder Him.  Be willing to be completely open to God’s will and see what He will do through your life.  I believe He will work in marvelous, crazy ways!

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