Posted by: Lindsey Albertson | March 2, 2009

March Newsletter

March marks the sixth month that I have been on the HOPE year-long team and the ninth month that I have been doing HOPE all together. So much has happened during my time serving here at Jefferson Street Baptist Center.

If I am honest, I have been lacking motivation recently. I have been guilty of selfishness and not having patience with others. This has been evident in my interactions with my teammates as well as with friends at Jeff Street. The past few weeks I have constantly said that things feel dry right now. I do not feel much motivation to reach out and love people. It is easier to just take care of myself and not have to worry about anyone else’s problems. I can be the center of my own little world.

But then I ask myself, “Did Jesus die on a cross for me to have a relationship with God so that I could live an easy, comfortable life and only worry about myself?” I believe that life is about something bigger than just me. Romans 15:1 says, “Now we who are strong ought to bear the weaknesses of those without strength and not just please ourselves.” Even though I believe this, sin gets in the way and I become selfish. Recently, this has become an apparent and daily battle. It is a battle between my flesh and spirit, individualism and community, selfishness and generosity, and ultimately between the pursuit of self and the pursuit of God.

God has done so much during my time here so far. I had the privilege of leading a lady in a Bible study which God used to grow both her and I. I have seen numerous folks get jobs and homes. I have seen alcoholics checking themselves into rehab and desiring change in their lives. There have been numerous people coming to church with us on Sundays. I have made many friends and had great conversations with folks here. If people had chosen to be selfish with their time and resources and only worried about themselves, would any of these things have ever happened?

I believe that this is a question we should all consider. What are we living our lives for and who is the center of our worlds? The answer for this is in the fruit of our lives, not just the confessions of our lips. This has always been a struggle for me and recently it has become an even greater struggle.

I want to ask for your prayers in all of this. I need your prayers. Please pray for the struggle that I am having with selfishness and sin. Pray that God would give me motivation for loving others here. Pray that my motivation would not come out of guilt or obligation but out of the realization of what God has done for me and out of the overflow of his love and grace in my life. Pray that God would move in the lives of others here. Pray also for staff as Jeff Street seeks to find how to best serve and minister to the homeless of Louisville and the changes that will come with that. Thank you.

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