Posted by: Lindsey Albertson | October 20, 2008

Give me your love for humanity

Give me your eyes for just one second
Give me your eyes so I can see
Everything that I keep missing
Give me your love for humanity
Give me your arms for the broken hearted
The ones that are far beyond my reach
Give me your heart for the one’s forgotten
Give me your eyes so I can see
-Brandon Heath

So I heard this song on the radio for the first time today…I definitely needed to hear it.

I have been having a hard time at work the past week. I am having a hard time being patient and loving people. In my mind, i justify my feelings by the way that the guests in the shelter have acted towards me. People come in and want to argue with rules or they get mad at me for something or they come in and say “gimme this, gimme that”. I am not sure how to respond to all of this. Wednesday it really wore down on me and Friday, after the first negative comment i got from someone, it affected the rest of my day.

I have been thinking to myself “I am here to love and serve these people, and they come in demanding things that they did nothing to deserve” I think of myself as in the “right”, the person who has been “wronged” And maybe I have been. But then I have been reminded that we do the same thing with God. We have done NOTHING to earn or deserve anything that he has given us, yet we sit back and demand things and question him when things aren’t going our way. He loves us, yet we come in demanding things that we don’t deserve.

God is teaching me about grace through alot of this. After Wednesday I thought, “it was just one bad day, things will change” but it has continued to be hard for me. Giving grace, forgiveness, and unconditional love doesnt come naturally for us. Especially me. When asked to love people who have done nothing to deserve it…or forgive someone who has hurt you and not asked of your forgiveness….i want to ask “why?”  But this is how we are called to live. 

Today at church the pastor talked about loving people. He talked about how we continually owe people and are in debt to people…to love them. We are in debt to love them,  not because they have done anything for us, but because of what Christ has done for us. We are in debt to love them, even before they have done anything for us. He also talked about how this love comes out of the overflow of Jesus’ love in us. “And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.” Romans 5:5. He has poured his love into our hearts and that is where we find his love in us to be able to love other people in this way.

I would like to say I have walked away from all of this feeling better and understanding fully what i need to do now. But that is not the case. I am still trying to understand and struggling through it. Who knows if I will ever fully comprehend grace? There is still soo much that I dont understand. But I pray that God would be patient with me in showing me to love the way he loves and has called me to love.

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  1. Amen Sister! Great thoughts!


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