Posted by: Aaron Padgett | July 18, 2008


Sometimes I feel like I’m not really doing what I should be doing. Most of the time I really just don’t want to. Sometimes my mind wanders off, thinking and wrestling with things (that aren’t completely crucial) like Arminianism and Calvinism, and I lose focus on what I should be focusing on. Sometimes I don’t think that I share the Gospel with people that desperately need it.

Sometimes I just get so tangled up in myself that I forget that I’m here to serve others… and most certainly to love others.

When I work and serve the homeless in the day shelter, I find that I keep myself detached from delving into the lives of people and letting them take a dive into mine. I think that I too often just serve their physical needs and neglect to remember that these people need abundant life spiritually as well, that they need Jesus.

Isn’t that selfish? To deny sharing with others the greatest truth, love, and hope ever known to man? As HOPE carries on, please pray for me that when I serve that I’m not shallow or superficial. Pray that I will truly care about every bit of a person, from their physical well-being to their deepest spiritual hardships.



  1. Sometimes…. I feel the same way. Thanks for sharing your problems so that I know they aren’t mine alone!

  2. Sorry Lindsey, I didn’t realize I was logged under you when I posted that comment!! That was from met!

  3. “I Surrender All” is one of the hardest hymns to sing and live. Do not grow weary in doing the good stuff.

  4. AP,

    I’m enjoying reading your blog and getting to imagine just a bit about everything God is doing in your life. It excites me to no end to think about how He is using you and what He is teaching you about Himself. I’d love to chat with you some time about some of the stuff you’re wrestling with. Don’t get frustrated by it. It’s good to wrestle with those things, because in the wrestling we always get to know God more.

    My one word of advice: Don’t get too caught up in human systems and man-made models. Some of them are pretty good, but none of them can accurately convey the whole picture of who God is. Instead, focus on what you know to be true about Him (stuff like He’s sovereign, He’s good, He’s gracious, He’s just, He’s wise, He created us as free and responsible, He delights in being in relationship with us, etc.) Don’t try to force those truths into a system; hold them each as true in the way Scripture presents them and accept that when we feel tension between some of them it’s because we still “see but a poor reflection in a mirror.” It will be a glorious day when we “see face to face!”

    And by the way, you’re still a girlie boy!


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