Posted by: Cameron Raulston | June 28, 2008

“Still a man in need of a Savior”

When I sit down to write a blog (or even a journal entry) about what I’m learning from my experiences at Jeff Street, I feel intimidated. Each day is so full that I feel I can’t possibly process all the amazing, difficult, new experiences I’m having, much less articulate them in a clear way! All complaints and disclaimers aside, I have learned a few things in the past two days that I think are worth sharing.

Yesterday morning started off lousily. I woke up later than I wanted to. Then, the guys and I were called to meet with Jesse, who assigned us to type up chore lists for the residents here. I wasn’t too thrilled about this because we’re busy as it is, and I didn’t want more work to do.

As we took a quick inventory of the mop closets, we discovered an unpleasant surprise. One of the closets’ floors was covered in about a half inch of filthy, smelly water. Aaron and myself grabbed mops and started cleaning it up. As we did so, we had to move about 8 brooms, 3 other mops, a couple mop buckets, and a wet/dry vacuum out into the hallway, a high traffic area. All the while, my anger was building. Then I had the bright idea to plug in the vacuum and suck the water up. This would be much quicker and efficient, right? So, we plugged it in and turned it on, and up spewed a fountain of murky, disgusting water that rained down on my head and back. I almost lost it. I was messy, angry, and tired, and that was all I could think about.

Later, as I went back to our room to change my dirty clothes, I reflected on the past few hours and had a realization: I am selfish. During the mopping incident, all I thought about was me–my feelings, my situation, my self. I forgot why I was mopping (to keep the closet clean for the residents) and who I was serving (God and people). Sometimes I think I’m through with all that “selfishness stuff,” only to discover sin and self-centered motives still lurking inside.

Jesus, thank you for your love, grace, and patience.

“What’s going on inside of me? I despise my own behavior. This only serves to confirm my suspicions that I’m still a man in need of a Savior.” -Charlie Peacock

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Responses

  1. What a great analogy/lesson, we are all covered
    with muck and filth (anger, selfishness) but
    our Savior makes us clean again! I love reading
    about your experiences at Jeff Street! Thank you!

    Carol,

    A friend of Jeff St.


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